I am not afraid! In the past, voices in my head would stop me from having fun dressing up as a character, doing cosplay, or going to costume parties. The voices were from the bullies I faced growing up in a small town. The toxic push of conformity was deeply ingrained in me for so much of my life. When I came out and began my transition over 6 years ago, I also began the long process of silencing those voices in my head. “Just Be You” became my mantra. It took many moments of courage to step out into the world as myself, to grow in confidence and to replace that deep fear of being judged with a bold ability to say with no reservation “This is Me!” – Last night I did an “Anime Girl Ari” cosplay stream that I had promised to my viewers back when I was raising money for my BFF (who had been financially affected by Covid). Before I went live, I felt a moment of embarrassment and fear of being judged for my slightly over the top cutesy outfit. Thankfully, I was able to get past the soft nerves. The truth is that I flipping love being able project this level of adorable cuteness. I can finally say with absolute certainty that I have beaten the bullies and this who judge and I am finally free to just be me without fear, without reservation, and with only joy in my heart for who I am โค ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ˜š #adorableari #decadeofari #devilishangel #justbeyou #thisisme #maidenariana #cosplay #positivity #animestyle #fuschiagirl #curlyhair #hairringlets #ringletcurls #transvengers #lgbt #twitchaffiliate #kawaiiaesthetic #kawaiistyle
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Thank you so much to @squeeekin for doing a complimentary correction on my pink highlights that did not take well last time and faded faster than expected. It looks amazing and I really needed the lift the salon appointment gave me today. A lot is suddenly going wrong around me and money is super tight due to car repairs and catching up on other bills. I have had to cancel a bunch of plans with friends and put off prescription refills the past week due to sudden financial constraints. I am no stranger to having to shift things around and still make ends meet somehow and pay for the things my kids need. My daughter and I did essentials only grocery shopping this week and I made some killer sloppy joes and sriracha chicken for meals (with lots of leftovers) so my kids still ate well when they were with me. I will get back ahead of everything financially soon. I work too hard not to. #stickwithit #igotthis #gottakeepsmiling #positivity #girlslikeus #transvengers #blondehair #pinkpeekaboohighlights #peekaboohighlights #girlswithglasses #lgbt #shorthairstyles #hairbob #bobhaircut #maybeishouldbuyalottoticket #twitchaffiliate twitch.tv/maidenariana

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These images are exactly 3 years apart. I do work hard to stay in shape and keep that feeling of renewed life I had in the photo on the left (despite the difficult circumstances and major stresses I had at the time). At the time (20 months into transition), I was trying to figure out how to buy the condo I live in now (so my kids didn’t have to sleep on the floor in my one bedroom apartment), while still in the middle of a divorce, and thinking any surgery was years away as my company insurance plan still excluded all #transhealthcare. So, I was paying out of pocket for what little I could do to maintain my transition. Yet, look at that smile I still sported on the left. I knew I would get to the day depicted on the right.. today. Maintaining a positive and forward looking outlook is so essential to staying healthy and mentally strong during transition. I am physically and mentally stronger than the version of me on the left. I am also better at relationships, friendships, and just at being happy with who I am. All of this took concerted effort over time, while maintaing a positive view of what I had already made it through. Your circumstances compared to where you are trying to go may seem impossible. Your outlook influences so much of your eventual success. You will get there! If you can’t see past the forest of challenges have friends lift you on their shoulders! โค๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿงก๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’™๐Ÿ’š (p.s. I find it funny how I just recently decided to go back to this hair length after all this time!) #nofilter #transitiontuesday #transformationtuesday #positivity #girlslikeus #transvengers #transpositivity #glowup #thisiswhattranslookslike #TransIsBeautiful #pride #lgbt #changes #hairchange #brunettetoblonde

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