I busted my tushie this week. I killed it all week with my day job. On side biz stuff, I fixed several WordPress sites that broke due to underlying upgrades. I now have two new products I’ve created that I’m going to show you all this weekend. I also have revamped my Android application so it is just about ready to go on the Play store. Finally, I’ve fixed the retro pentium 200 pc I want to use for my wing commander retro stream coming up on the 31st. Not streaming as often has been paying dividends in my productivity but maybe I’ve also been drinking extra coffee ☕ 😆 What to do next? #retronerdgirl #retrodress #modstyle #womenwhocode #womenintech #coffeebeforeanything #decadeofari #maidenariana #hazeleyes #blondegirllife #fuschiagirl #curlyhair #naturalcurls #curlyfuschiablonde #lgbt #transvengers #twitchaffiliate #ihaveapatreon #linksinprofile
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Did I ever mention my new glasses darken in the sunlight but to a fuschia colored hue? I did that by special request because it felt right. I’m so mentally present in the moment & feeling like me right now and it just feels awesome. With the stress of the last year, I was much more outward focused almost as a defense mechanism. I was trying to make sure that my kids were good, my family was good, my online community was good, and my friends were good (raising money for one in particular by streaming more than I ever have in a year). During all that, I did not do the best job focusing on what I needed to be doing for me, my future, and my own health & happiness as much. In that sense, I did pause a bit even though I did a ton this past year. Every year since my transition began there were some major things going on that needed to be planned for or addressed and it took so much energy and focus to survive that any periods of “thriving” were only found in small spurts. Just as I was putting transition related stuff kind of behind me, the pandemic hit and a new kind of survival mode had to kick in. This summer I have been able to find my focus and a sort of balance again and I never want to let it go. Some of my long term projects that I have been talking about are finally coming to fruition. It may not be up to me as the world might throw me some new curveballs any day now. However, I plan to do everything I can to keep my star rising and my health improving. There are some of you out there who have been supporting me in small ways for a long time. I love you and thank you so much. 💓 I don’t really feel like I’ve lost a year, but navigated through a horrible one, helping others along the way and learning new survival skills all while having some much needed help and encouragement from people across the globe as I did so. Thank you! #gooddays #gratefultobehere #lgbt #plottingmycourse #maidenariana #decadeofari #hazeleyes #fuschiagirl #blondegirllife #transvengers #twitchaffiliate #ihaveapatreon #linksinprofile #instaprofilehasmylinks
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Curly, straight, fuschia, blonde, brunette, stylish, tall, athletic, demure, strong, sweet, kind, empathic, compassionate, cute, brilliant, beautiful, sexy, free, happy, fun, alive..

Of all the things that have been used to describe me by other people in my dms and comments, the messages that matter most to me are from people who say I’ve made an impact for them by being visible and just being me.

I know lots of people get a sour taste from social media. It comes and goes for me and I take breaks from posting and don’t worry about posting daily etc. I view it as a space that can simply be fun for sharing joy with other people while also being an extremely important outlet & source of much needed inspiration and solidarity with others who are like you.

The first time I ever posted publicly on social media was on tumblr during the darkest days of my life before transitioning. It truly was stretching my hand out and upwards from a dark pit of despair and loneliness. I was in a dangerous place at the time.

All I can say now is thank you to every single supportive person that has ever bothered to acknowledge my existence and especially those who outright supported and encouraged me to continue to be me.

If you feel isolated, unseen, unheard, and think your experience and life do not matter.. you are wrong. You matter. You are alive. Stay alive and dare to be everything you know you can be. Apologize to no one for it.
Grow. Strive. Persevere.

You are your own worst critic and worst obstacle.

I know, I’ve been there.

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